I'm so tired of life. I dropped all but one class because I fell behind for various reasons. In Geology II, I just didn't want to go, even though I already knew the info. When I tried to play catch up, I just gave up. Physics I just fell behind in, and since I wasn't going to campus because my other class I needed was online, I just dropped volleyball. It's my favorite sport but I didn't want to play it with the rest of the class. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm overwhelmed with moving and unpacking and going through all our shit that I just want a break to do one thing at a time. I still have my online class but I only worked half of it, no quiz, and don't even care. What the hell is wrong with me? Going to school is the only way I can do my life's dream but I'm so tired of it! I guess it doesn't help that I've been full time since I started, even in the summer. I know I should give myself a break but I just want it to be over and done with. I'm this burnt out and not even to graduate school yet. Doc gave me Prozac and sleeping meds saying I'm overwhelming myself with work and trying to do too much, but I only have one life and want to do it all. So I end up overwhelmed and doing nothing but zoning out watching tv just to distract myself from life. At least I enjoy my job.......
I had a weird dream last night. It was about my ex-dreamy boyfriend. We were going out but he was missing and his house was on fire and I was worried about him. Then he was ok and we decided to plan our first night together and right when it was getting good, I awoke to feed baby kittens. Don't get me wrong, they are cute and soft and oh so adorable, but bottle feeding kittens is hard. You have to feed them every 2-4 hours and stimulate them to go to the bathroom also. Gross and tiring. I've been taking naps for the last few days and can't wait to sleep tonight when someone else has the kittens. Sleep will help me feel better, right? Shower and bed then. Night world!
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